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What makes our difficult emotions more difficult?

by Nathan Chua

All of us go through this.  We feel some anxiety, sadness, anger, and so on and seem to dig ourselves deeper into the abyss of unpleasant emotions.  

There is a reason why we see ancient traditions of meditation where wise people sit for periods of time.  Part of the exercise is to be able to stay with difficult thoughts and the feelings that come along as they sit.  In fact the type of meditation that is referred to here is called just sitting.  

Contrary to the logic that we so often use so well with problems that are external to us, our struggle lies not in our difficult emotions, but with how we relate to them.  As kids, we were trained by our parents or other guardians to show mostly feelings that are labeled as positive.  These are rules we learn early when we are first taught to listen to and recognize words that refer to positive or negative consequences to our behaviors.  Mom and dad don’t like it when we are sad and crying because such feelings attached to the behavior get in the way of a quiet night watching a movie or a party with friends.  Your crying loudly in church or a friendly gathering doesn’t allow for the adults in the room to focus on what is going on.  

As a result, we learn to judge our own feelings as bad and in turn judge ourselves as bad too for having such unwanted emotions.

Dr. Russ Harris gives us a list of how our mind judges our feelings and make them worse:

  • “Why am I feeling like this?”
  • “What have I done to deserve this?”
  • “Why am I like this?”
  • “I can’t handle this!”
  • “I shouldn’t feel like this.”
  • “I wish I didn’t feel like this!” 

The key here is to be able to describe our feelings instead of evaluating them.  Evaluating our feelings means we begin a struggle with them and think that the only way forward to doing that important project is to get rid of such feelings.  Let me be okay first before I go on with my day and my plans.  I will only go for that promotion or approach that person I want to date when I feel confident enough. 

Unfortunately, these judgments against our own feelings become invisible barriers that stand in the way of us pursuing that very thing that would make us feel like we are living in accordance with what we aspire to be.  We go from a natural pain that life gives us when we end up in tough situations, to a manufactured pain or a pain that we create for ourselves wherein we become entangled in a war inside our minds…while precious time ticks away.  Eventually, that promotion goes to someone else at work or that date gets involved with someone else.  

Describing our painful emotions on the other hand, allows us to approach difficult feelings with curiosity.  As we do so we are more able to allow such feelings to hang around for a while and then come and go as they please.  Note though that we have no control over how long or if these unpleasant feelings will stay or not.  The more we try to control them and want to get rid of them, the more they linger and make us end up being at war with our own thoughts and feelings.  

Just remember, we are not our histories, they are just a part of us.  Hating our own past and wishing they were different means being at war with something we can learn from.  Our histories can either enrich our lives or be our worst enemies.  We just have to choose. 

One Life Only Counseling Services provides an evidence-based, transdiagnostic approach to counseling with proven results in addressing a variety of mental health concerns. We provide both in person and online video counseling as well as soft skills training workshops for corporate and non-profit organizations.

Of Wounds and Arrows: How Couples Conflicts Can Win Closeness

by Nathan Chua

It can be bewildering for some of us to think about conflicts as opportunities for closeness.  How can these instances of excruciating feelings of anger, hurt, and aggravation turn into lovey-dovey moments?  The key is not in what you fight about or why you fight, but in how.

The problem begins with a slow but inevitable part of being around someone for a significant period of time.  It’s an unnoticeable slide that couples take as they begin to get off the stars in their eyes to a more realistic view of their partners.  Slowly, differences emerge from the shadows as if they were never there when they first met.  Unfortunately, this begins a cycle of conflicts that not only produces conflicts about conflicts but also the conflicts that they create out of discussing such conflicts.  In other words, it not only becomes a fight about differences but also a fight about the way they fight.

This kind of relating can either produce feelings of helplessness and a surrender to a comfort zone that doesn’t increase closeness and retains the status quo, or lead to the eventual end of the couple’s relationship.  Either one of the couple walks out believing that there is no hope for the relationship.  At times, couples will just stay with unfulfilling relationships that not only gets in the way of a meaningful relationship, but also hamper their capacities to leave their kids a lasting image of a healthier way to deal with the conflicts that they will eventually have with others of their generation.  After all, as some experts put it, the best couples make the best parents.  No amount of parenting skills learned through self-help books and workshops can replace what children see in their parents when they’re fighting.

If couples can take time to record their fights and listen and analyze what one said that led to the other saying something more hurtful, someone with an understanding of how fights escalate will recognize that most of their remarks focus on what the other person is doing wrong, doing too much of, or not doing enough of.  Alas, couples become caught up lawyering for themselves in the arguments.  Left unchecked, this exchange becomes an unwinnable war between the couple.

A group of experts have come up with an easy to remember slogan that couples can take to their disagreements.  To paraphrase, “Focus on the wound, not the arrows.”  This means that in order to stop the vicious cycle of arguments, couples would need to come from a more vulnerable spot.  Instead of criticizing the partner for something they evaluate as wrong or defective in their partner, he or she can open up with softer emotions that describe how some behaviors of the partner affect them.  

For instance, instead of saying, “You never keep your word about coming home in time for dinner,” an aggrieved partner can say, “I feel lonely having to have dinner alone and neglected when I don’t get an update if you’re coming home for dinner on time or not.”

From this standpoint, the offending partner will tend to be more open to listening than being focused more of being on the defensive.  Defensiveness is usually the second step towards escalation and unless you’re with a partner who’s as calm as the Dalai Lama, a criticism or sharp rebuke will usually be met by an equally strong defense. 

Sharing vulnerabilities usually stops the attack-defend cycle.  A vulnerable partner can be met with more compassion and empathy.  This is when a couple can experience a closeness and connection that they have long missed since their early days of dating.  It may be scary and our minds will come up with all sorts of reasons not to be vulnerable, but for as long as there are no physical or threatening verbal attacks involved, it is well worth the try.  Eventually, you will see that conflicts lead to a closeness that has been absent for so long.       

How do we objectify ourselves?

by Nathan Chua

It’s too hard.  I can’t.  I must.  I should or should not.  These are just some signs of a person (1) believing in the reasons that the mind offers or (2) signs of objectifying him or herself.

Here’s a test for how reasons may not be as powerful as we think they are.  Think of a few reasons why you can’t stop your addiction to binge watching movies or television series online.  Now, think of a few reasons why you shouldn’t be wasting countless hours of your life watching them.  Now consider this, if reasons did make us do things, then all of us would have been doing the right things all the time because they come from the right reasons.  So in effect, reasons are just thoughts and nothing more.  It is up to us how we behave whether such reasons exist or not.

And how is it that we objectify ourselves?  Let’s take for example someone who was dear to us in our family dies.  Here’s where we play the I should or I must game.  I should be able to buck up and keep doing what I’m doing.  I mustn’t show any emotions for being emotional at this time is inimical to myself and the people surrounding me.  If we look deeper, this means that we ought to have a switch inside of us pretty much like a robot or a computer.  Our thoughts tell us that we ought to be as efficient and switchable as that desktop in front of us.

Unfortunately, this almost always doesn’t work, because how do we accomplish switching ourselves off?  Well, that trip to the bar with flowing alcohol is one way.  Others are getting lost in busyness at work or at home, comfort eating, and of course, binge watching.  Some of us go to pills that doctors prescribe to get rid of unpleasant feelings.  All of these do serve the purpose of making us feel better for a while, but ultimately comes with a pretty huge price tag, a chunk of our lifetime spent on what only matters to make us feel good temporarily, and little or nothing to do with a meaningful and purposeful life.  Like how empowering does it feel to have a bunch of pills in your pocket to kill your depression or anxiety?

We also objectify ourselves with the roles that we create for ourselves.  I have always been the wedge that kept mom and dad away from getting at each other’s throats.  I have always been the successful migrant who keeps the family finances together.  I would always be the caretaker of the clan.  These are just some of the many roles that stick to us like cattle branding.

We even objectify ourselves by the values we aspire to live by.  We use our values to bludgeon ourselves.  I must always be kind and generous.  I have no option but to say yes all the time because to say no means I would be a bad person or a hypocrite.

The one thing that most of us forget regularly and quite often, is that the challenge of this life is not being in control of our inner workings all the time like a computer or a robot.  

The challenge is being a person, being human.

You and I are human because we hurt when we lose someone we love.  You and I are human when we make mistakes that make us feel we haven’t lived consistently with what truly matters to us.  You and I are human because we exist beyond what our minds tell us who we are.  You and I are human because we do things that our rational minds cannot comprehend.  And that something incomprehensible is the thing that is most akin to being human, and that’s none other than our capacity to choose the hard stuff for no other reason but love, and caring for ourselves and others.