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Are some emotions toxic?

by Nathan Chua

How was your day? Toxic! How often have you and I heard this from a partner, friend, co-worker, or even ourselves? It may be unsaid, but in our subconscious, that normally means we had a day with really “bad” emotions. The mantra seems to be, we have to be feeling good at least most of our day to make it a day worth our while. The toxic day becomes nothing more than one that’s wasted, forgotten, and thrown into the garbage bin, a part of the many insignificant moments of our personal history.

This is often thrown around in media and online circles as positive thinking. The undisclosed rule here is, we need to have positive feelings in order to move forward with whatever it is we want to do with our relationships, careers, etc. We flip it around and we come up with the opposite rule, negative feelings equals a negative life or a life that is spent dwelling in negative thoughts. Simply stated, negative feelings mean you can’t do much that’s productive. These unwanted feelings cause us to do bad stuff or become unproductive.

Much of this comes from what we learn as kids from our parents. The ultimate babysitter rule is don’t be angry cause anger causes you to act badly towards your siblings. What’s so bad about learning that, you might ask? One way to answer this is with a question. Why do you think there are some men out there who believe that anger causes them to lose control of their actions? It’s because these men were trained to think that the emotion of anger is the invisible thing that causes them to become violent. But nobody ever got into trouble with anger. It is what we do with our anger that does that.

Another problem that this rule about avoiding negative feelings can create, is that we can believe that we should remain positive even in situations that would normally cause us to feel sad or anxious. This way we become insensitive to context. We pretty much saw this in certain events when the Covid 19 pandemic struck. Some people remained optimistic that the virus was going to just go away and threw caution to the wind. Positive thinking in this context works rather poorly in saving lives.

Emotions are there to give us messages that there may be something here that is important to us. In what ways, you may ask.

Here are some ways our negative emotions can be helpful to our well-being:

When our kid crosses the street: Without the fear that our child could get badly hurt in a car accident, we would not grab the child out of danger when they attempt to put one foot out on the street. The so-called “negative” emotion can be just the thing to keep us breathing.
When we visit the grieving: Without sadness, we will not be able to be present with the people who had suffered a loss. I mean, wouldn’t you think the grieving would feel more comforted when they know that they are not alone in their sadness, guilt, fear, and whatnot?
When we date: Without having a clear sense of our feelings while we are on a date, we could end up with multiple relationships that are abusive. For instance, if you do not sense that this person makes you feel unimportant because they only want to talk about themselves, then you might be in for a rude awakening some day. You miss an opportunity to say no to your date and find another one who may make you have a sense that your evening, your ideas, and your feelings matter as much to them as they do to you.
When we want to discover who we want to be: The most difficult feelings we have usually tell us about what truly matters to us. If we care about friendships, then we would naturally feel anxiety when we are in a situation where friendships can be made. If we care about being accepted, then the possibility of rejection is something that would mortify us. Behind the anxiety and the fear of rejection we often miss the idea that being sociable and being accepting matter to us dearly. If they didn’t matter, they wouldn’t hurt! Are being sociable and accepting qualities we would want to run away from? If we do (primarily because we don’t want the pain that comes with these qualities of being), we lose chances of discovering who we want to be. And time can go by really fast without us noticing that we have been so busy pursuing relief from the pain but not really being the sociable and accepting person we want to be.

As you see, we have feelings for good reasons. That’s just how we were built in order for us to survive and succeed in cooperative groups; for we did evolve successfully in groups. We are not the solitary type of species.

Furthermore, not wanting to feel bad means we can’t be happy either! How does this happen? Think about that trip you made to Boracay. If you are the type who does not want to feel disappointed, then you would not want to feel too bad when your vacation ends. We end up living a flat life with very little adventure since full-on enjoyment reminds us of full-on disappointment. To paraphrase a renowned psychologist, your mind is like your hand, it cannot choose what it can feel. Your hand will feel both the rough and the smooth surfaces. We can’t tell our hands to only feel the good stuff.

On a final note, I want you to notice the difference between making a presentation with the goal of getting it over and done with, and how you’d feel if you made the presentation regardless of how hard it was emotionally, simply because it was important for you to do it for an audience that you cared about. The former will probably be more about a sense of relief, while the latter would most likely give you an experience of accomplishment and satisfaction. Now, which side would you like to be on?

Remember, both situations have anxiety in common. One though wants to run away from it, while the other knows anxiety is just part of the deal of pursuing meaningful ends. Neither of them want anxiety, but one of them accepts it for a cause greater than what they feel. So the question you would want to ask yourself is, “Would you be willing to have something you don’t like, to gain something that you do want?” In other words, would you prefer living a life pursuing relief or a life pursuing satisfaction, meaning, and purpose, because as I often like to remind you, my audience, we all have One Life Only!

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Why some good advice may be bad for your relationship

by Nathan Chua

These words of wisdom can range from the general to the specific. How often have you and I heard some talk show hosts and even some clergy, tell us what to do in our relationships, only to find out that these seem to backfire or only give short term results but eventually fail us when we most need them in our most distressing moments.

Here are some examples that hopefully covers the general and the specific advice:

Love your spouse.
Do something to satisfy your partner’s love language everyday.
Don’t let the sun go down on your anger.
Don’t be stingy with your apologies. Apologize as soon as you can whenever conflict ensues.

If these types of advice did work for the majority of us, then we would see a lot less marital discords and separations in our midst. Last I heard, the “divorce” rate in our country doesn’t veer away much from the averages in more economically-developed countries. Last I heard also, the divorce rates among therapists are even higher than the average in a developed country like the United States.

For example, let’s use the advice that one should immediately seek reconciliation with a partner to avoid drifting apart. One way to do that is to make an apology as soon as the conflict starts. This could end up with the couple not just fighting about what they fought about, but also fighting about how the apology was done! Double whammy! And then the couple goes off on a tangent with even more issues about the past or future worries about how the relationship will unfold.

Context Matters:

The types of advice we hear from talk shows and read about online are well-meant. I mean who could argue that you should make an apology or that you should address your partner’s love language. The reason this doesn’t qualify as the silver bullet for change in your relationship, is that we are all different based on our own histories, and also that not all situations are the same.

Going back to the earlier mentioned example, a highly conflict-avoidant partner may use quick apologies to appease situations. The offended party though has a history of ranting and in his or her view, being hit immediately by an apology doesn’t offer a chance to release some of that inner tension or start any kind of meaningful talk.

So for instance, they fight about one not being responsible enough to take out the garbage, Partner A is angry because this has become a constant irritant between them while Partner B uses his quick apology once again to keep the peace. A now becomes more annoyed because this was not the first time B has used his apology to avert a discussion. For A, this does not allow for them to have a constructive conversation or a moment when they are both open to arriving at a compromise. And there they go! A gets into a fit that B does this, and B retorts that A should be more receptive to his or her apologies. So the fight goes from a simple household chore, to their differences in the way they handle conflict. Sound familiar?

As you can see from this example, no advice however sensical they may sound, will be done in a vacuum. In other words, the solution becomes the problem so that the original problem remains while they fight about the solution that didn’t work because one did not live up to the expectation that the solution is supposed to provide!

So next time be mindful of the advice that you hear in popular media and psychology. Understand that your partner and you are unique and your situations, likewise. Try other ways to address these situations that have remained a concern for you for many months or years. Be aware of these situations as you see them coming. Look back and see how the situation unfolded, and understand why your relationship is vulnerable to such conflicts. In other words, be mindful of the context before you apply the advice.

Finally, remember that you love this person for so many reasons that make your life so much more meaningful. One of your vows you made rings a bit like the idea that you accept this person for who he or she is. As Christensen, Jacobson, and Doss have written, “Approach change in the context of acceptance [for] change is the brother of acceptance, but it is the younger brother.”

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Get to know the difference in our approach to counseling…in 30 minutes!

I am quite sure that many of you think that all of the counseling practices being offered in the Philippines are just the same. Pretty much about common sense advice to deal with your difficulties in the secret life you and I have in our minds. You probably hear a lot of these in talk shows and see them online in your Google searches.

I must admit that from 2009 up to 2019, my practice varied only slightly from what was and is still widely available in the Philippines, that of a syndromal and symptom-reduction approach to therapy.

Since 2019 though, I have come across an approach that I believe jumps out as the most scientifically sound that I have ever experienced applying in my own life, as well as those that I have helped in the past two years or so!

In my zeal and excitement to share this with you, I am now offering a 30-minute session that is packed with enough information for you to see how this relatively new approach in the field of counseling and psychology works so well, and why it is now the most researched method in the world for the last 20 years!

What you will be shown is what Dr. Kevin Polk calls the Psychological Flexibility Point of View, which can neatly sum up this approach to therapy in just 30 minutes!

Feel free to reach out to us and book yourself a quick 30-minute appointment that we are confident will change your life’s direction! Yes, that’s all we ask! Thirty minutes and you are free to decide if you wish to continue your work with us or not.

You can be an individual, a couple, or a family. Just take 30 minutes of your time and see if this is something that will explain best why you and I struggle within our mental worlds!

Call or message me now at 0917 886 LIFE (5433)! I’d be more than excited to share my newfound knowledge with you, so you can start your journey towards creating that best version of you that you’ve always wanted!

What is One Life Only Counseling about?

Hi everybody! We have recently updated our definition of what One Life Counseling is all about. In our zeal and dedication to provide you with the best possible results in your quest to change your lives for the better, we began our new journey towards a process-based approach to our work. This applies to all our clients including couples and families.

We will never be satisfied unless we find the best possible and most effective approaches that empower you and help direct you to a path of growth and personal satisfaction in living the kind of life you have long wanted for yourself and your loved ones!

We have put the updates in italics.

Here’s what you can expect from One Life Only Counseling:

You can be assured that your information with be kept completely confidential.

You will be respected regardless of your religion, gender preference, ethnicity, economic status, and even your personal lifestyle and values.

Your counselor will not impose his or her values and beliefs on you.

We use brief, scientific, and evidence-based approaches to address your concerns. These approaches are known to produce the best results that require only a handful to about a dozen sessions for you to experience life-changing results, as against years of seeing a therapist which can, at its worst, foster dependency.

Since 2019, we have adopted new therapy approaches that do not categorize people into sets of symptoms. They are process-based approaches to therapy that are now gaining appreciation from thousands of experts in the field who have found the current symptom-reduction, syndromal approaches less than adequate in addressing the human condition. The process-based approach has been found to be effective in many areas of concern ranging from common mental health concerns like depression and anxiety to even work and sports performance.

Since 2019, we have been very excited to offer this type of a radically different approach to therapy that is not just about relieving symptoms, but rather helping people towards creating lives imbued with meaning and purpose.

This is content is the subject of our first podcast in our One Life Only Counseling Spotify Channel! If you wish to hear this on Spotify, click here!

What happens when we biomedicalize mental health?

by Nathan Chua

If we were trained to look at the ads we see everywhere from our mobile devices to the busy highways we go through in our regular commute, we can pretty much sum up what they’re selling us in one word. Would you like to venture a guess? That new car, that shimmering bottle of beer (that in reality is rather bitter and awful-tasting), that outfit, or even that loan that you have to pay off in a matter of a month to 20 years, are invariably supposed to make us feel good! So what in one word are they selling us? Happiness!

Having this in mind, the helping-people business has not been above the culture of the times. It is understandable that for about a century now, the field of psychology has devolved into an endeavor of classifying us into a set of symptoms or syndromes. The goal then becomes removing or lessening the four out of seven or the five out of nine signs that you are, for example, a borderline personality. This is what experts have called symptom-reduction therapies. Let’s remove your anxiety and depression so you can start moving on with your life, at least to the level of “normality.” To borrow from one of the pioneers of Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, it’s sort of like looking at how a fountain works by trying to figure out the different colors and patterns, and seeing how these can be explained.

Unfortunately, such endeavors have only left places where people have been almost literally drugged out of existence. It turns out that removing these “negative” emotions has a costly side effect: not feeling at all! There has been no science to determine that there is a germ or microbe or gene that causes mental problems. The drugs only serve to numb us–something that dead people can do better than we who are alive.

Too much anxiety? Well, here’s a drug to keep you relaxed. Too much depression, well here’s something to perk you up. It can go so bad as to make those who take these medications dependent on them. As another expert has said, it’s become so prevalent that in their country, the chemicals that are used in these antidepressants are now found in their water. Moreover, there are now drugs to treat the very side effects that such medications can create. And with trained eyes, you can sum up what these drugs are selling in one and the same word again–Happiness! The objective is to remove those feelings and thoughts first before you can start living a worthwhile life.

Fortunately, the group of people that Dr. Steven Hayes has assembled, have come up with something called process-based therapy. Dr. Kirk Strosahl who likened the way symptom reduction therapies work to explaining or addressing the phenomenon of a water fountain by the numerous colors and patterns that it makes, explains it this way: That if we were engineers studying how this fountain works, we will see that underneath it, is a simple combination of processes that a few tubes combine to do, to make it look intricate.

I have seen it in the people I have met in my work, where they come in with glassy eyes, looking enervated and lifeless. It breaks my heart to see this. In my work, I would love to see the exact opposite happening to my clients. I would love to see them bubbling with energy and enthusiasm for what life has to offer.

The culture nowadays provides for an environment where people (and that includes me) are unintentionally tricked into believing that life is about feeling good. The meaningful life has become about having the right kind of car, job, or even partner. Got this or that and you and I will be happy all the time. Well, first of all, that goal is impossible. Secondly, some of the most meaningful parts of life revolve around something we did that was hard and anxiety-causing.

I often use the following vignette to give my clients a new perspective towards life and what it is that we come to therapy for:

“If you look back at a graduation ceremony of a child, or a wedding, or any of these momentous occasions, don’t you at some point want to shed a tear? Why? Is it because raising a child and putting them through school was always happy and joyful? Is culminating a long-term relationship during a wedding all just about having fun? Or was it more like, you went through a lot of hardship and trials and somehow made it through together? The most meaningful and purposeful moments were hard, full of ups and downs, and of unpredictable and anxiety-causing moments! The tears would mean you somehow pulled through and made it! You did the hard thing, the brave thing! That’s why you come to me for counseling. Not just to be happy but always pursuing that which gives you purpose and meaning, until you breathe your last! And that’s how that wiser part of you says you were meant to live.”

Goals of Counseling: What is it all about anyway?

by Nathan Chua

I remember a person who shared with me that she had been with her therapist for several years. She felt it helped her in terms of managing her anxieties and anger issues. She went on to share that she needed her weekly sessions to get some relief from all the emotional struggles that go on during the week. This type of counseling is called supportive counseling which certainly has its place in the field. In my graduate studies, I can certainly attest to the fact that I used to do this type of work in dealing with my test cases to begin my training in listening or counseling skills. With this person who shared her experience though, the weekly sessions have become a psychological crutch, just like taking a break from her cares for at least an hour a week. *

Counseling work is more than just being supportive. The goal is more about having clients learn, as experientially as possible, skills that can be brought to their everyday lives. The counseling room becomes the lab where these skills are introduced and tested.

I don’t really mean to be simplistic here but I thought the title can help us focus on knowing what goes on inside the work I do and its ultimate goals. If we come up with something that would make it simpler and more understandable, then we would have done a better job in assisting people in appreciating what all these working sessions are for.

If you wish to change the way things are in your relationship with your partner, then you need to try different things. In ACT or Acceptance and Commitment Therapy linggo, we call that expanding behavioral repertoire. It is also referred to as flexibility skills. If you start a conversation with your spouse with a criticism or a “You” statement every time, you are more than likely to get defensiveness in return. And so on and on you go with the circular arguments that often lead you to ultimately just avoid each other or get into a massive shouting match.

Unfortunately, we are the creatures who think that we can do the same things over and over again and come up with the results we want, even if the evidence clearly shows the contrary. We like to follow rules and rule-following becomes the dominant reinforcer of our behaviors, and not the actual contingencies that show up. We can see this if we break down the process of how people get hooked to the slot machine or some form of gambling addiction. Although it is true that there is a one in a billion chance that you might hit pay dirt, the addicted person is not aware of the consequences happening as they continue this obsessive behavior.

Taken in these terms, we in this helping profession are after you getting out of your comfort zones. Comfort zones are places where we want to end up that give us the short term feel-good moments. Being able to analyze your spouse and find out what’s wrong with them, can give you that sense of accomplishment that you know something they don’t. Getting that high in front of a slot machine when you win a small pot can be intensely rewarding at the moment. However, the long term consequences eventually show up. You no longer become the spouse you want to be. The more you criticize your partner, the more they snap back. Slowly eating away at the relationship you once thought will go smoothly through the years. The more you gamble, the more you end up piling up debts and spending countless hours unable to do anything else that could have otherwise been spent more productively and meaningfully.

I’d like to borrow a phrase from a book to help you, my readers, understand how counseling works. The work is about being comfortable with the uncomfortable. Maybe it’s time you tried another approach to your spouse, even if it feels embarrassing or extremely “so not you.” Maybe you need to sit with those urges to gamble and find out what really is behind the pull towards the addiction so that you can find alternatives to spend all that energy on. To paraphrase a well-known ACT therapist, Kirk Strosahl, maybe there’s something more important here than what you feel.

If you are like the person I discussed in the first paragraph of this post, then be wary. That’s because the counseling work is making you feel comfortable! If you start to do things that are uncomfortable with the help of your counselor, then you might be on the road to being comfortable with being uncomfortable. That’s also when you know that your work with your counselor is worth all that time and energy. Maybe you’re on to trying something different that moves you towards what I regularly use in my discussions with my clients: being the person you want to be, and living the life you want to live.

*The example here is an amalgam of different cases that do not refer to any person in reality.

Grief Counseling Module with Russ Harris

Nathan just finished another training module with renowned author and ACT therapist from Australia, Dr. Russ Harris!

What is in your “born-again experience” and how can you make your newfound spirituality last?

by Nathan Chua

Growing up exposed to faith traditions, I remember always looking forward to spiritual retreats. Not only do I get to have time off from school or work for free or at a discounted rate, I also get to meet new people or have more bonding opportunities with friends or schoolmates. However, it is often a big question among retreat-goers as regards how long the effects of such a religious experience will last into their mundane lives. Of course, being in a situation where everybody is smiling and having a break from the usual busyness of life, provides an idyllic setting that makes it easier to be kinder and more loving. No doubt there are doubts if there is an actual spiritual side to any one of us. Maybe we are just ordinary folks not really destined to consummate lives that are anything close to the clergy who facilitate these events.

Well, what my fellow retreat-goers and I couldn’t figure out in those days, I think some good ol’ science has posed an answer to. In most other approaches I have encountered in my more than a decade’s long journey into counseling, I think ACT or Acceptance and Commitment Therapy stands out as unique in its inclusion of values into what I thought was supposed to be a valueless undertaking. Before 2019, I used to think that my job was confined to helping people find a way out of their mental miseries and the rest was up to them. In ACT though, there is that very powerful component of pursuing a values-based life.

So how do spiritual retreats work? Why do they have such an impact on us? How do we keep that spiritual revival going in real world settings? To answer the first two, these retreats function as a way to help us get back in touch with our values. These values are chosen patterns of behaving that are consistent with our deepest aspirations for ourselves. These values never actually leave us, they just become obscured when life as we know it, gives us the challenges of work and the important but difficult relationships we have.

Our minds have evolved into an evaluative, problem-solving tool that takes over when challenges to these values are present. Your kid starts to act nastily towards you. Your boss makes a comment that you found offensive. Your spouse forgets your birthday. How are we supposed to still be kind and loving in these situations?

Dr. Steven Hayes mentioned in one of his talks, that the problem-solving mode of mind can be described as analytical and predictive. In other words, it wants to find out how we got into such a situation and how we can get out of it quickly and painlessly. And these modes of mind are focused on the past and the future; unable to recognize what’s going on in the present. Our minds pretty much work in a way that suggests we take the fastest way out of troublesome thoughts and feelings that come along at work and in relationships. For example, the recalcitrant child is making us feel angry and frustrated. The problem-solving mode of mind figures out how we got to this point by thinking that the child has been spoiled, and then suggests the quickest way to solve the spoiled child and get out of our frustrated feelings is to just try to control the child by yelling and screaming at them. Goodbye sweet, kind, and loving us that came out of the retreat! It is easy to see how these spiritual revivals are only as good as the few days or the few weeks after. Simply said, it is more likely that we live out or become aware of our values or what is truly meaningful and important to us, when the situation is well-protected from the challenges of life outside these exclusive retreat enclaves.

And how do we keep the spiritual fire burning when like all good things, the retreat must come to an end? In ACT, I have learned quite a few ways to do it. The first step however is to get out of the mindset that all good things are about good feelings. A good way to challenge this “good feelings equals good life” idea is to notice the not-so-good feelings that come with living our values. Anything important to us usually comes with a price. If it were easy then we wouldn’t really care about it. We hurt because we care. Our sadness from a loss is because we loved. We get angry because something has violated our sense of justice. We experience anxiety because there’s something worth our trouble that we want to accomplish.

As we keep our final destinations in sight, committing to something also involves taking small steps towards them. After having been able to return to these values, we can take action no matter how small in that direction we go. Make it a point today to call a friend you haven’t reached out to in a while. Go buy ice cream for your kid just because. Stand up for yourself and don’t take a sip of alcohol in your weekly gathering with your alcoholic friends. Small steps to break your patterns can put you back in touch with those values you cherish and also understand that situations, thoughts, and feelings have no control over you, but you do. Start doing the uncomfortable stuff and then take time to savor the results as a reward. It will likely be worth all the struggle!

Every so often I do get some calls inquiring about whether I do a faith-based approach in my practice or not. I welcome anyone and everyone from all faith traditions to come see me. I’d rather spread the word that I am inclusive, not exclusive. Why? Because while we may be subject to different rules of faith, we are all subject to the same rules of science. For me, there is no conflict. In fact, what I am learning now from ACT as an evidence-based approach to therapy, just showed me how much traditional faith-based practices have been affirmed by the science behind ACT, albeit thousands of years late.

I always feel a sense of sadness when people turn away from what ACT science can do for them, without first investigating if it is in sync with their faith. I hope, if you’re one who is looking for a faith-based approach to therapy reading this post, that you give me and this science I use, a chance to help you because it has tremendously helped me. Call or better yet, text me. I’d love to go on a journey with you towards a more meaningful and purposeful life you may have yet to experience!

How to be OK even when everything else is not

by Nathan Chua

Multiple deadlines, challenges at home and at work, you’re about to lose your job, someone in the family has a serious ailment, pressure is coming from all sides…life happens and is coming at you like a savage beast hungry for a fight to the death! These are the times when people come to see me. The world has turned against my clients and there seems to be nothing they can do that has succeeded in changing anything. In fact, the more they try the worse the outcomes become!

It is also during these moments that our minds go on overdrive, drilling judgmental thought after judgmental thought into our consciousness. The key here is to reach a level of awareness of what is within or outside our control. If you ever wondered what it is that makes us feel that we are living ineffectual lives, it is our misdirected efforts to control that which is not subject to control.

Just be the human being that we had become through billions of years of evolution! We have an assortment of wonderful tools inside our nervous system. Turning against these evolved functions, is like working against gravity.

Ultimately, what happens to us in life is not within our control, but our responses are. The goal of psychology as a field of scientific study is to bring to bear what it is that makes us live ineffectually and then find ways to change or interrupt that process to get us moving towards a different, more effectual, and more life-enhancing direction. So it really does not matter as much what happens to us, as how we face them. How we handle ourselves in those moments is where we can bridge the gap between what we are and what we aspire to be.

The question we could keep in mind is, “Did we handle it well?” Here’s a paraphrase of Dr. Darin Cairns words reminding us that we can be okay even when everything around us tells us we’re not.

“I can’t promise you everyone’s going to like you.

I can’t promise you that people will always know you exist.

I can promise you this, if you like you at that time, if you liked how you lived it, then you’ll like that you were true to what you believed in.

That you liked how you handled yourself in terms of whatever you value, then you’re always ok.

You’re ok when you’re popular, you’re ok when you’re alone, you’re ok after a breakup, you’re ok when you’re scared to death, and you’re ok when you’re hurting.

You don’t have to stand tall but you do have to stand up. You don’t have to think that you’re better than anyone, you don’t have to have anyone praise you, but you do have to be willing to exist for you.”

So to you my friend, I can say that no matter how dire your circumstances are at this moment, take a look at yourself ahead of you by a year or so, and ask yourself, “Would your future you like how you, the present you, handled the situation?” I hope that brings you back in touch with what truly matters for you in each and every moment that comes. No matter how not okay these moments can get, you can be okay knowing you stood up for you!

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Did you like you in your moments?

by Nathan Chua

Most people come to therapy with goals that have to do with being in control of their emotions and also hoping to get some assurance from an old and wise person that they are doing the “right” thing. Some of these goals are like, “I want to feel more confident.” “I want to get rid of this depression so I can do things that I have been wanting to do but can’t.” “I want to know if I am making the right decisions with regard to my relationships.” Unfortunately, all of these are not within our control and the more we try to do so, the more ineffectual and undesirable we feel about ourselves.

You are not alone. I had long thought that psychotherapy and counseling were about achieving the goals mentioned above. After all, who wouldn’t want to make all the right decisions all the time? Who wants to feel anxious and have the people around them see their trembling hands? Who wouldn’t want to feel happy once they figured all of these out? I am the problem that should be fixed! Who wouldn’t want to be the smiling faces you see in the billboard ads?

Unfortunately, that is a difficult if not impossible task. No one alive can control emotions, thoughts, and outcomes. Only the dead can shut out feelings and thoughts and inevitably get the same results…nothing. Moreover, unless you suffer a major head injury, your mind is going to work up those thoughts and feelings multiple times every day. No matter how hard we try we can’t control our thoughts and emotions; and we most certainly cannot control the results of our efforts.

Here’s a paraphrase of Darin Cairns’ words, a therapist from Australia working with a client who has resorted to avoiding difficult thoughts and feelings by not engaging with others. He said this as he made his client realize the futility of his control agenda.

“I am not gonna promise you this [moving towards relationships] is not gonna hurt. In fact, I am gonna promise you it will hurt. I have no intention of making you happy. I’d like to help you have a meaningful life so that you can have all the feelings you want, because I don’t know about you but that sounds like an awesome outcome, compared to just being happy. If you want to be happy all the time, first of all you can’t do it, but if you do achieve something like it, we call it mania and we’d lock you up.”

Not everything that makes our lives purposeful and meaningful is about pursuing happiness and avoiding difficult feelings. Additionally, if we only did the things that we knew would have guaranteed results, think about how many of the things you would love to do, just does not present such outcomes.

I loved playing basketball when I was younger and I still love it now as a fan. Playing the game is not all fun. In fact, there will be anxious moments, times when you don’t like what your teammates are doing, and boring practices. It’s a microcosm of life. We play the game of life knowing we will come across anxious moments in the pursuit of what we want. We won’t be smiling all the time, but it sure beats watching funny movies all day just to feel happy. Like it or not, we enjoy doing hard stuff, not just happy stuff!

Many times our thoughts and feelings get in the way of us pursuing the things that we know will make our lives more meaningful. That job you’ve always wanted, that business you’ve dreamed of starting for so long, that date you always wanted to have with this person you met at your local fellowship group, and many more, are some examples of what can be scary but ultimately life-giving. Like a basketball player, you don’t know if you’d one day become a champion or just win the neighborhood pick up game. You don’t know if that date will say yes or no. You don’t know if you will get the job or that the business will succeed. But can you take all that uncertainty and anxiety with you in pursuit of something that’s truly important to you?

So the question is, will you take whatever these feelings are and still pursue what you want? Are these hopes and dreams worth the anxious moments, the sweaty palms, and racing heart rates? Are you willing to feel everything that comes with going for your best hopes for your life? Are you going to play the game regardless of the possibility that you would lose?

I learned this from Darin Cairns. It is not really about what the other people think about what you did or how well you did in the pursuit of something important, but how much you liked yourself as you did them. Did you like you in those moments as you pursued being you? You’d probably be surprised, because you’ll see from hindsight, that the times when you were most proud of yourself, weren’t really the happiest times at all. In fact, they were the most difficult and trying of times; and you probably liked the way you went through them. You liked you in those moments…and that was all that mattered, regardless of what you felt and what results you might have or have not gotten!