It is hard to imagine how all of us have suffered through this pandemic for so long. None of us, except for a few elite scientists, could have known that this would happen in our lifetime. This situation has probably sent you through a whole gamut of difficult thoughts and feelings. From struggles with anxiety, fear, frustration, anger, relationships, boredom, and more; they are all understandable in these times.
Some of us may be saying, look what Covid has done to me? I’ve become more irritable, less tolerant, depressed, anxious, angry, and many more. You are not alone. You share these thoughts and feelings with anyone who has had a brush with all that this pandemic has been inflicting on us for over a year now.
The key here is to know what is within or outside our control. With difficult situations come difficult thoughts and emotions, and sometimes it could be difficult relationships as well. Unfortunately, it is often that we find ourselves judging all of these as unwanted, unnecessary, and even harmful to us. We can’t be blamed for having these judgmental thoughts. In today’s “success equals feel good and happy” society, there is really nothing much that can explain why we feel miserable, except that there’s probably something wrong with us. We are defective in some ways compared to others. They all seem well put together and coping well in spite of everything.
You and I have minds that are quick to judge ourselves especially when times are rough. This is the hardware that we come with. The depression comes when we buy into the idea that we have something to do with the quality of our thoughts. We measure our sanity against the seemingly pristine and peaceful minds we see in TV ads, social media, and the gigantic, right on top of us, billboards. Eventually we discover how futile our attempts to suppress unwanted thoughts are, and begin to have a sense of powerlessness and of being ineffectual. We fight with the constant murmurs of our minds and get caught up in this struggle. Here’s the secret sauce, “Give it up!” It doesn’t matter how many pills or distracting activities we do, let’s come to an acceptance that our minds are simply wired that way. Next thing we do?
Commit to doing things that tally well with what we want to do with our limited time on this planet, and more so, with our short, precious moments with those who matter to us. Take these thoughts and feelings and bring them for the ride of our choosing. Come back to what truly matters to us with all the unwanted chatter! Be present with our kids even if our minds continue to remind us of that upcoming mortgage payment. Be kind and loving even as we feel frustrated with how people around the house are acting. Act calmly even if we aren’t feeling calm. We can do it if we are willing to do the hard work, because in the end, it only matters what we have done, not what thoughts and feelings we struggled with in our heads.
Having been trained in psychodynamic therapy, helping trauma clients from a behavioral lens was unimaginable for me as a graduate student. With the use of the inner child, memory and exposure work, it turns out that the two approaches share much in common. From an ACT or behavioral, and scientific perspective however, I have learned the rationale behind such practices, and how our nervous system works to produce the kind of ineffective responses people have towards traumatic experiences. It was difficult having done this together with the ACT for Adolescents course, but it was well worth the effort. I consider it a privilege to be around in an era where people like Dr. Russ Harris, a best-selling author and renowned ACT therapist, are able to share their knowledge and expertise from thousands of miles away! I eagerly look forward to more courses in ACT, Relational Frame Theory, and Functional Contextualism.
As we live in a predominantly Christian country, forgiveness can take on a lot of meanings. You and I have heard numerous recommendations from well-meaning friends, relatives, clergy, and even mental health practitioners about the necessity of forgiveness in order for us to live richer, more purposeful lives. The edict to forgive at all times however, has the unintended consequence of pouring guilt on the victim for not being ready to forgive. Not only is it hard to forgive people who have caused us great harm through abuse, neglect, or abandonment, people around us make quick judgments on our choices.
Having received my education from Roman Catholic and protestant institutions, I have had my share of confusion and guilt over such matters. Does it mean I have to forgive everyone at all times? Am I going against my own values for not wanting to forgive? Is it inimical to my own peace of mind if I refuse to offer forgiveness? Is forgiveness about forgetting also? I know, cliche! However, they linger and perhaps for some, even haunting!
It was a long search, but I believe I have finally found something that corresponds to my personal experience with forgiveness. The ACT (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy) take on forgiveness stems from the etymology of the word, “forgive.” To forgive means to give ourselves what came before. Using this perspective, it is easy to see how we can liberate ourselves from our own resentments about past hurts. Playing the blame game for how our lives are, can be distressing and disempowering. Forgiveness is a gift we give to ourselves. We can be who we were before the harm was done even as we hold our offenders accountable.
There is more good news! I know many of you reading this have some interest in the subject because you have yet to forgive at least one person in your life. As yet, there is no science that indicates forgiving our offenders is beneficial to our psychological well-being. Forgiving someone who has deeply wronged us is not a precursor to living a meaningful and values-based life.
I hope this helps especially those who have suffered terribly in the hands of an abuser. It is liberating and it protects us from the victim-blaming culture that pervades. You are not alone.
Most people come to therapy with goals that have to do with being in control of their emotions and also hoping to get some assurance from an old and wise person that they are doing the “right” thing. Some of these goals are like, “I want to feel more confident.” “I want to get rid of this depression so I can do things that I have been wanting to do but can’t.” “I want to know if I am making the right decisions with regard to my relationships.” Unfortunately, all of these are not within our control and the more we try to do so, the more ineffectual and undesirable we feel about ourselves.
You are not alone. I had long thought that psychotherapy and counseling were about achieving the goals mentioned above. After all, who wouldn’t want to make all the right decisions all the time? Who wants to feel anxious and have the people around them see their trembling hands? Who wouldn’t want to feel happy once they figured all of these out? I am the problem that should be fixed! Who wouldn’t want to be the smiling faces you see in the billboard ads?
Unfortunately, that is a difficult if not impossible task. No one alive can control emotions, thoughts, and outcomes. Only the dead can shut out feelings and thoughts and inevitably get the same results…nothing. Moreover, unless you suffer a major head injury, your mind is going to work up those thoughts and feelings multiple times every day. No matter how hard we try we can’t control our thoughts and emotions; and we most certainly cannot control the results of our efforts.
Here’s a paraphrase of Darin Cairns’ words, a therapist from Australia working with a client who has resorted to avoiding difficult thoughts and feelings by not engaging with others. He said this as he made his client realize the futility of his control agenda.
“I am not gonna promise you this [moving towards relationships] is not gonna hurt. In fact, I am gonna promise you it will hurt. I have no intention of making you happy. I’d like to help you have a meaningful life so that you can have all the feelings you want, because I don’t know about you but that sounds like an awesome outcome, compared to just being happy. If you want to be happy all the time, first of all you can’t do it, but if you do achieve something like it, we call it mania and we’d lock you up.”
Not everything that makes our lives purposeful and meaningful is about pursuing happiness and avoiding difficult feelings. Additionally, if we only did the things that we knew would have guaranteed results, think about how many of the things you would love to do, just does not present such outcomes.
I loved playing basketball when I was younger and I still love it now as a fan. Playing the game is not all fun. In fact, there will be anxious moments, times when you don’t like what your teammates are doing, and boring practices. It’s a microcosm of life. We play the game of life knowing we will come across anxious moments in the pursuit of what we want. We won’t be smiling all the time, but it sure beats watching funny movies all day just to feel happy. Like it or not, we enjoy doing hard stuff, not just happy stuff!
Many times our thoughts and feelings get in the way of us pursuing the things that we know will make our lives more meaningful. That job you’ve always wanted, that business you’ve dreamed of starting for so long, that date you always wanted to have with this person you met at your local fellowship group, and many more, are some examples of what can be scary but ultimately life-giving. Like a basketball player, you don’t know if you’d one day become a champion or just win the neighborhood pick up game. You don’t know if that date will say yes or no. You don’t know if you will get the job or that the business will succeed. But can you take all that uncertainty and anxiety with you in pursuit of something that’s truly important to you?
So the question is, will you take whatever these feelings are and still pursue what you want? Are these hopes and dreams worth the anxious moments, the sweaty palms, and racing heart rates? Are you willing to feel everything that comes with going for your best hopes for your life? Are you going to play the game regardless of the possibility that you would lose?
I learned this from Darin Cairns. It is not really about what the other people think about what you did or how well you did in the pursuit of something important, but how much you liked yourself as you did them. Did you like you in those moments as you pursued being you? You’d probably be surprised, because you’ll see from hindsight, that the times when you were most proud of yourself, weren’t really the happiest times at all. In fact, they were the most difficult and trying of times; and you probably liked the way you went through them. You liked you in those moments…and that was all that mattered, regardless of what you felt and what results you might have or have not gotten!
One of the awesome features of ACT (Acceptance and Commitment Therapy) is the use of metaphors that makes counseling work more experiential and interesting. One that has recently become my favorite is how an ACT therapist, Chris McCurry, uses the chess metaphor so effectively. Here’s how I remember some of the ways he describes the chess game and how it is similar to the way our minds work.
Our minds have different thoughts with varying degrees of importance and likeability. Some are quite important while others are part of our mundane thoughts, like our plans to go grocery-shopping for the day. The important ones can refer to our sense of meaning and purpose, our thoughts about how we can face life’s tragic aspects, or our important relationships that require our attention. Now, as chess is a game of two sides of a battle, one side can represent our more positive thoughts while the other will be our negative ones. In McCurry’s illustration, he says that even if we feel like the positive side may have the upper hand at any given moment, there will always be at least one piece of the negative side that remains. We can attest to this fact simply by checking in with our personal experiences. How many times have we enjoyed a vacation and said we don’t have any single negative thought in mind? Probably not! If you are married, did you do so with nary a negative thought? On the other hand, how many times have you been caught up in negative thoughts and still have that little tiny voice inside you that says: You’re alright, don’t worry! As you can see, neither one can totally eliminate the other.
In Russ Harris’ version of the chess metaphor for the mind, he shares that each white piece actually generates a black piece and vice versa. Positive thoughts remind us of our negative ones! You can test this with your own experience. See what you sense if someone like me told you that you are the nicest kindest person on the planet! See what your mind does with that information. I can also start with a negative judgment. You are the worst most unlikeable person on the planet! See what you mind does with that too.
Did you sense that in the former your mind tells you: Hogwash! I am a kind person but certainly not all the time or not compared to everyone else? On the other hand, did your mind do the same opposite-thinking while hearing me tell you that you are the worst person on the living earth! Your mind may say something that goes like this: Yeah, you’re right, sometimes I do feel that way, but that can’t be right all the time!
As you can see in these illustrations that there are no winners in this game that we play in our minds. It is unwinnable as McCurry describes it. So it is hopeless trying to be the positive pieces in this war in our heads. The negative pieces just aren’t leaving for as long as we are alive and with our nervous systems functioning as they are as I write and as you read this post.
The question now is: Then who could we be in this chess game so that we can get out of this war and move on with our lives? The answer is the chessboard! We are the containers of these thoughts but we are not them! And being the containers, we don’t really need to care who wins or loses in this game. We can remain as witnesses to this war!
If you are able to write down your thoughts, then this is a practice in metacognition! Noticing your thoughts and noticing that you are noticing them! That’s a part of you that notices everything that goes on in your life! And with this capacity, we can then choose the particular course of action that is most effective for what is unfolding in front of us!
Furthermore, I love that Chris McCurry also uses the chess game to illustrate life and its tragic elements. As we play the game, we will eventually lose pieces as we go through it. The object of the game is to keep playing with the pieces you have left. This is a bigger metaphor actually of not just our minds but of life itself. If we live long enough, we will experience the bitter sweetness that life presents. As Steven Hayes, the developer of ACT writes in his best-selling book,
“You have only so much time on this earth, and you don’t know how much. The question “Are you going to live, knowing you will die?” is not fundamentally different than these questions: “Are you going to love, knowing you will be hurt?” Or, “Are you going to commit to living a valued life knowing you will sometimes not meet your commitments?” Or, “Will you reach for success knowing you will sometimes fail.” The potential for pain and the sense of vitality you gain from these experiences go together. If your life is truly going to be about something, it helps to look at it from the perspective of what you would want the path your life leaves behind to mean.”
Life gives us but one chance and it doesn’t come without moments when we have to say goodbye to our youth, old friends, and loved ones. Like the game of chess, let’s make the most of what we have at present and live our One Life Only as well as we can.
You will never be like our friend Joe. He knows how to make Valentine’s day special for his wife. I clean your closet for you and you never even try! I need you to change or else I will never be happy in this relationship. I have done so much for this relationship so why can’t you do the same for me?
These are just some examples of how couples end up escalating their fights. They end up not just fighting about the issue at hand, but also the way they fight about it. In the following article I will be writing about a few common requests that couples make that usually backfire. Here is a short list of some of these ineffective petitions for change that couples use:
Did you notice how sweet Joe is to his wife? Why can’t you be more like that?
The problem with this type of request is that it immediately makes your partner defensive. Your partner, just like everyone else will then make comparisons to other people who are less thoughtful to their partners than him or herself. We all have the ability to make both upward and downward comparisons. Comparisons usually make way for even more comparisons that will defend your partner’s position and invalidate yours.
After all of the work I have done to keep this household clean, you can’t even pick up after yourself! When will you learn not to dump the dirty dishes in the sink and leave them there for hours?
The problem with this demand is that you turn your partner’s differences into defects. It may not take you much to clean up, but it can take quite a bit of effort for your partner. What may seem easy and logical for you, may not be as evident to your partner.
There are quite a few more of these, but I will now turn to ways in which you can make your requests more likely to be granted. Please note that I don’t claim certainty here. But at least these types of requests will be less likely to compound the issues by turning your fights into fights about the way you fight. You might be surprised at its simplicity.
Make simple requests for no other reasons but for the fact that such changes will make you happy! Most, if not all of us, go into a pair-bonding relationship for the simple reason that we want to make our partners happy. It gives us pleasure to know that we have done something that makes our partners smile.
In some cases though, you may find it hard to talk about these requests for change without ending up in a major altercation. In such instances, you might have to be a bit more creative. Do something different in the way you make your requests, like handwriting an open letter or sending an email.
If all else fails, there are a few things that have less to do with how your partner is, but more to do with how you are in the relationship. One is being able to accept the fact that in all relationships, there are bound to be inequalities. Your partner will be unpleasantly surprised if you suddenly demand for something that was never there in the first place. Secondly, come to terms with the fact that change is bound to happen in any relationship. In fact, keeping things as they are will take more effort than accepting that change will happen over time. To use a metaphor, keeping a car or house in its original state is much harder than accepting the fact that they will eventually break down in certain areas.
Finally, the only thing that I can guarantee will make changes in your relationship, is a change in yourself. Do what your partner has been asking for. Do it without asking anything in return. Give your partner an incentive to do what you’ve been requesting for. Be kinder, sweeter, and show your partner that you have come to accept many of the differences that he or she brings into the relationship.
Attempts to change your partner by sheer force of command usually backfires. You can only influence change not demand it to happen in order for it to happen. If you change, there is a greater likelihood that your partner will notice how much you have come to accept him or her, and thus show changes too. It’s just up to you to be more mindful of the changes you see in your partner and appreciate your partner’s efforts. As humans we all harbor aspirations of becoming the best person we want to be, most especially in this one special relationship that is like no other. Your partner is no exception.
Ah, the functions of language! Until recent years, I have never thought about how language played a role in our ability to sustain our mental health. As the theory behind this new approach that I am using is framed upon language and how we use it, I would like to introduce you to a few terms that we use in a way that can cause us to experience unnecessary depression, excess anxiety, and even attempts at suicide!
The first expression we use quite a lot in the field of counseling is the word, “healing.” I remember in the years I spent in graduate school, this word was used quite liberally. In fact, there was even a book that had, as part of its title, the words, “wounded healer.” Healing though connotes the idea that we are somehow broken and that we need to be put together like a puzzle or a broken vase in a clinical setting.
Reality though would tell us that this can be nothing more than a figure of speech that at the least, could be considered unhelpful. Because nothing inside of us is really broken. It is rather a form of learning to resort to certain strategies that provide instant relief from emotional pain that end up unproductive and futile; and thereby rendering us feeling more ineffectual and deserving of our sad fate. We are whole and complete. What we suffer when we are said to be having some psychological problems is that of being stuck in a pattern of behaviors that do not serve our best interests.
The next phrase or term I have learned to be used in unhelpful fashions is the idea that comes from stories of people who supposedly went from being dead to surviving a coma. It is often said that they see a great white light and felt immense peace! Attempts at suicide are basically logical responses to removing the difficult feelings brought on by our attempts at living what comes as meaningful to us. It is better to die, since one: it will remove the painful emotions we experience from our pursuits for meaning and purpose, and two: there will be unimaginable bliss thereafter. Unfortunately, allow me to paraphrase an expert in behavioral analysis who said in jest that there has so far been no one on record to have answered a survey from death that talks about how much better it is on that side.
The last term for this post is the word, confidence. We often combine this with the word, “feel.” This means that confidence is a feeling that we need to achieve in order to do something of significance. As Dr. Steven Hayes likes to use etymologies in his work, the word actually means having full trust or faith in Latin. We have somehow in our modern usage of the term used it to mean that it is something we feel rather than something we do. We can still put our full faith in ourselves even as we feel anxious about doing a certain task.
Remember that the best way to live is to focus on what we do rather than what we feel, because there is the possibility of redemption in the former. Our feelings are subject to change and outside of our control. If we hang our hats on them, we will find ourselves stuck in a cycle of frustration, and eventually see ourselves as broken vessels that need to be pieced together, or brought to a place where we choose to end it all permanently for temporary relief from the varied emotions we experience that come with truly living.
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Interview with Chinkee Tan and Christine Bersola-Babao on MagBadyet Tayo about financial conflicts in relationships, October 23, 2023
Nathaniel Chua is a member of an international organization called the Association for Contextual Behavioral Science (ACBS). He became chair of the Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion Special Interest Group (DEI-SIG) of ACBS; the first Non-North American to do so.
Nathaniel Chua has a Master’s Degree in Counseling and continues to learn more of the most cutting-edge approaches to working with the human condition.
Below is Nathaniel Chua’s first virtual talk held on November 17, 2023 in front of an international group of therapists from Low or Middle Income Countries (LMIC). He is the first from the Philippines to do this:
What is One Life Only Counseling about?
You can be assured that your information with be kept completely confidential.
You will be respected regardless of your religion, gender preference, ethnicity, economic status, and even your personal lifestyle and values. We are LGBTQIA+ friendly!
Your counselor will not impose their values and beliefs on you.
We use a scientific model of counseling that has precision, depth, and scope. Below are bullet points to let you understand better what we mean by this:
By precision we mean that our approach to counseling tells you how these mechanisms of change work. It is not enough to say that a sense of self-awareness is what creates changes in people’s behavior. Our approach tells us how self-awareness works as one step within a set of processes that can lead to lasting change.
Depth means the approach we use does not conflict with other theories and models of therapy. In fact, many other approaches can be used as forms of treatment towards greater psychological flexibility. Our approach for instance does not conflict with findings in the area of attachment theory, gestalt therapy, psychodynamic therapy to just raise a few examples. It cuts across other levels of analyses.
Finally, by scope we mean that our approach comes from the discovery of the smallest set of processes that cuts across multiple mental health concerns from anxiety and depression to personality disorders to psychosis, etc. It is a transdiagnostic approach that seeks to understand what many of the symptoms or syndromes come down to, so these processes can be targeted to address many, if not all of the disorders listed in different diagnostic systems.
We are also probably the only counseling service in the Philippines that follows a certain philosophy of science with certain a priori assumptions about human nature. With this in mind, we offer a holistic consistent approach to life’s challenges that is a-ontological, monistic, and pragmatic.
Furthermore, ineffective behaviors are addressed by their classes and functions, therefore making our model of therapy parsimonious and much easier to apply to daily living. Most of our clients are empowered to use the skills they learn in therapy to apply to a multitude of challenging situations without having to rush to a therapist to address specific concerns. If you remember Einstein, everything can be explained by one simple equation, E = mc squared! In other words, we do our best to be ACT-Consistent or as some other experts would call it, we practice, ACT Fidelity!
The approach we use is also one that is endorsed by the World Health Organization as an effective psychological tool for coping with any kind of life crises! It can be described as a kind of psychological vaccine that has been found to be effective in improving and promoting mental resilience in the face of many, if not all kinds of life challenges.
Here’s a paraphrase from Dr. Steven C. Hayes in my interview with him on April 5th, 2022:
“Here’s what the World Health Organization, the best public health and scientific group in the world says about this protocol, this extensively tested protocol is helpful for anyone who is stressed, for any reason, in any circumstance.”
Since 2019, we have been very excited to offer this type of a radically different approach to therapy that is not just about relieving symptoms, but also about helping people towards creating lives imbued with meaning and purpose.
Here’s a video about what makes One Life Only Counseling Services different:
Recent certificate given to Nathan Chua for presenting a talk about couple’s therapy in front an international audience of therapists from Low or Middle Income Country (LMIC). He is the first and so far the only one from the Philippines to accomplish this.Interview with Julius Babao and Christine Bersola Babao, October 25, 2023Interview with Dr. Steven C. Hayes, the developer of ACT, April 5, 2022Interview with Dr. Andrew Christensen May 14, 2022Guest resource person with Boy Abunda on his show The BottomlineOne of several TV appearances on Sakto with Marc Logan and Amy Perez
July 2024 interview on Kapuso Mo Jessica Soho about jealousy and anger
Here a video of Nathan Chua’s appearance on a “Dapat Alam Mo” Episode:
Here’s a solo interview of Nathan Chua with an ACT Matrix Expert and Counselor from the United States, Jacob Martinez:
Interviews with the experts:
Here are two interviews with the two experts that have had a huge impact on my work in recent years. They are with Dr. Steven Hayes and Dr. Andrew Christensen. Here are the videos:
I think even without a new year to celebrate, many of us have often made certain commitments that we hope to accomplish beginning at a certain time. Well, looking back, how many of those commitments have we fulfilled? What is it that keeps us from getting from point A to point B?
One way we end up not doing what we resolve to do has to do with reasons. Our logical minds have evolved to find cause and effect relations. This is an important function because in order to solve problems in our environment, we need to know what causes something to happen. For instance, relevant to today’s issues, our minds needed to find out what causes the spread of the coronavirus in order for us to keep infections down and manage the extent of the pandemic. The scientists needed to know how the virus causes life-threatening pneumonia, for them to find ways to counteract the process of fatal illness developing in people.
The only drawback to this mental capacity is when the rule becomes inflexible. They are applied across other domains when they don’t really put us on a path to where we want to be. For example, we say, “I have to eat chocolate if I am sad.” The rule here is sadness should be removed by eating unhealthy snacks. However, we can reverse this statement and say, “I should not eat chocolate to stop me from feeling sad, because in the end, the lack of control of my behavior makes me even sadder and therefore the urge becomes stronger.”
Now if reasons really have so much power over us, wouldn’t we be all following the reasons why we should not be eating chocolate when we feel sad? The answer is no matter what the reasons our minds come up with, we still can opt to act one way or the other. This only means that no matter how much we try to give ourselves reasons to do stuff, we can always make a decision that complies or doesn’t comply with the behavior we want to either stop or begin doing more of.
This means reasons are just thoughts that our minds come up with for us to make logical decisions. Unfortunately, what may sound logical may not be what’s good for us. Now, you might be thinking, what then do I do about this? Well, one way to do it is to first notice your thoughts as thoughts. They are not you. Your mind is just a part of you and your bodily functions.
One way to practice this ability to keep your thoughts separate from you, is to give your mind a name. Thank him or her for the suggestion. You’re not bad for having those thoughts, it’s just part of your minds’ functioning. It is nothing more than a reason-manufacturing tool.
You can also add in one more step. You can notice what sticking to your diet is in the service of. Maybe you’d like to become more attractive so you can start having more opportunities to find a date. It could be that you’d love to see your kids grow old enough to see them go through different life stages. Whatever your motivations are, it is best to come up with ideas that give you intrinsic motivation, rather than those that make you think that you are a bad or lousy person if you don’t follow your resolutions. The latter only spirals into the negative feedback loop of emotions.
And finally, keep in mind that whatever life-enhancing habits we want to create, it takes time and patience. Your road will not be a straight line. Every time you fail at your commitments, you can always pick yourself up and keep going towards a direction you want. We are creatures who want to create habits that work for our lives. If we suffer an injury to our leg, we still want to stand up and walk again, don’t we? And yes, you and I will fall to the ground as we rehab, but we pick ourselves up and keep going, with pain and all. Because walking matters, just like living does too!
Anger was a familiar foe to me. As a child, I saw how anger in the family was able to get the giants at home what they wanted from myself and others. And so I learned that albeit unpleasant and unbecoming, anger can be a means to a good end. Anger for me was never an end in itself. People should understand the reason for my short temper, so I thought. Yet, there would probably be very few occasions when I would realize that my angry behavior served me in good stead as I pursued the good ends.
Much of what ails us with anger is not about the feeling itself, but rather the coping style that most of us use as we feel this difficult emotion. You see, my biggest problem with my anger was precisely what I had just indicated in the opening sentence of this blogpost. Anger had become a familiar foe, when all it was, was a part of my nervous system telling me that I just experienced frustration or disappointment or anxiety.
For as long as anger remained my enemy, then it would continue to stand in the way of me becoming the person I wanted to be. Back in my days as a businessman, anger got in the way of my acting in a manner that was most faithful to my deepest aspirations for my life. My inner yearnings to help the people around me made me passionate about keeping the business healthy and viable. Mistakes at work meant a step backwards and threatened to move the company away from this goal. My mind dutifully and persistently told me that the solution to avoiding mistakes, is to exert control over the people working for the business with my anger. Unfortunately, gaining full control over other people is like keeping ocean water from being salty.
The logical solution was to intimidate people into feeling motivated every day. What’s worse is that my mind has learned this dictum to try and try the same thing over and over again until I succeed. Put in another more familiar way, my mind told me to do the same thing over and over again and expect a different result.
Here are some tips for you my readers on what to do when anger pays you a visit:
Welcome your old friend and breathe into the feelings and body sensations that arrive with your anger.
Notice it and observe it in your body. Observe what it is egging you to do. Notice it with a beginner’s mind.
Remind yourself that this is but part of a journey, a hero’s journey if you will, and you just encountered something that is getting in the way of the valued outcomes you want at this very moment.
Give yourself some compassion as you suffer through these obstacles and difficult feelings.
Remember what it is that you wish to stand for in your life.
Notice the thoughts as thoughts and not as commands that will make you go in a different direction if you’re not aware. Remember the actions your mind will dictate can move you away from the valued outcomes you had imagined.
We all have seen the unfortunate results of harsh behaviors in our midst. We have also seen how it affects our sense of purpose and meaning as we go through the daily challenges of life and relationships. Anger is neither bad nor good. It’s just a feeling that we all can contain within us. It is a part of us. Not wanting it is akin to saying that you want your tongue to taste only food that is pleasant. Unfortunately, our tongues and other senses come in a package. We will feel both ends of the spectrum of emotions.
And if you are like me, your anger might have something to offer you. For many years, my anger had been telling me that I did care about the business, because its viability meant the well-being of the people involved. This realization has helped me see what was behind my frustrations and disappointments. I cared and I still do to this day. May we experience the benefits of accepting life for all the bitter-sweet experiences it presents. As an old ACT saying goes, “We care where we hurt and we hurt where we care.”
