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How to start Marriage/Relationship Number 2

by Nathan Chua

New year, new dear? Yes, you can, as a couple, start your relationship all over again! You might be wondering how in the world can I, as a counselor, help you change your partner? Oh he’s been like that for a good part of two decades now! What gives me the audacity to claim I can change your partner? Well, there is a way my friends! And the wonderful thing about it, is it’s up to you, not your partner. Let me tell you how to curtail your long wait.

I don’t want to be the bearer of bad news, but paradoxically, the best way to change your partner is to accept him! Of course I’d be lying if I told you that this was guaranteed. But chances are, if you’re reading this, you’ve already tried many, many ways to change your partner, and they all haven’t worked. In fact, the more you try to change your partner, the more rigid he becomes. Most of the time, you find yourselves stuck in a verbal skirmish that could put to shame some lawyers you know, in terms of the tenacity and adroit argumentation that both you and your partner display.

Let me explain what I mean with an example. If let’s say your partner is not as neat and tidy as you are. You are now exhausted with all the cleaning up to do and the reminders you have to make to help your partner remember to do her side of the bargain. You then come to therapy and learn that these things are better off accepted and can take a long time to change, especially with the way you have been heretofore dealing with the problem. Based on this new understanding or awareness that what you have been doing is part of what keeps you stuck, you start laying off on the reminders and become more accepting of the fact that your partner will be hard-pressed to turn into the neat and tidy person that you want. There is a likelihood that your partner will notice the change in your attitude. You no longer holler and complain as much as you used to. She may notice that and begin to see how hard it is for you to be left alone taking care of house chores. Pretty soon you see her performing some of the chores to please you, precisely because you have accepted her with these differences she brings into the relationship.

Another tip is also to be more noticing of your partner’s efforts to change. If you notice that she has started doing some unexpected cleaning, be mindful enough to show her your appreciation. Give her a smile or a hug or say some encouraging words of appreciation. You’d know more than I do what makes your partner happy. Show her that you’re not missing the forest for the tree…maybe for the first time in a long long while.

Now, do you notice also that in both of these pieces of advice that I just enumerated, who is in control? Is it your partner or you? It is you. You have control over your actions of whether to accept your partner’s differences in the way she keeps her place tidy. You also have control over your behaviors that involve encouraging her by your appreciation.

So creating marriage number two is not about changing your partner, it’s more about changing you! And the most accessible parts of you that can be changed, are those that involve your choices to act. You may feel frustrated and uncomfortable, but in the end you have the option to keep whining and complaining and criticizing your partner, or start the process by coming to accept that certain things are hard to change.

As a summary of what you can keep in mind to help you change the way you have been approaching your relationship or marital concerns, here are some immortal words from Albert Einstein, “We cannot solve problems with the same thinking that we used to create them.”

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Facing the New Year with Awareness, Courage, and Love

by Nathan Chua

The title of this post is not an original, at least the part that counts most. Many times in my graduate studies, I had wondered what, bottomline, counseling was about. I mean, what is it basically that we are trying to accomplish? At some point in my graduate studies, I thought it was forgiveness. It turns out that I will find an answer to this in my readings of Kevin Polk and his co-authors. It’s about helping clients to become more aware, to act courageously, and to do so lovingly.

Let’s take them one at a time.

Awareness:

Much of what we regret doing stems from acting in ways that are automatic. How often have we seen people commit homicides in this country, only to see them realize that they had lost control over their actions for a split second? There was even a case of a police officer who had a sterling record of service, who now has an indelible audiovisual account of him shooting a hapless middle-aged woman dead. His promising career that took him years to build was upended by a brief moment of rage.

Awareness is a word that I often heard around the graduate classes I attended. In ACT or Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, the word that is more often used to describe awareness is noticing. For me, the gerund form makes it an active pursuit that we can do from moment to moment. If we learn to practice noticing, then there’s a chance for a split second that the police officer I earlier mentioned would be able to choose more effective actions in that moment of rage. It could have averted the loss of two lives. One ended by a shot in the head, while the other was left to languish in prison.

Courage:

One thing ACT has taught me is that noticing is not just noticing or being aware of the difficult thoughts and feelings that we have. It also involves noticing the rest of us. By that I mean, we also notice other facets of the context that can move us in the direction of what is important to us in each moment. Being a complete human being with all its history and complexity involves noticing that part of us that can move towards important ends.

Over involvement in avoiding and controlling difficult inner experiences can lead us to tiring out of life and learning hopelessness is just around the corner anytime. The peculiar thing about us is that we are capable of doing things that we don’t normally expect from ourselves when the stakes are high enough to respond in ways that go beyond our own urges to be self-protective. We seem to be capable of running towards difficult inner experiences rather than run away when it matters. That shy, unassuming classmate of yours can all of a sudden show up in the news being called a hero for saving a complete stranger from a burning car. As Dr. Steven Hayes, the instigator of ACT, loves to say, “That’s just the kind of monkey we are.” So we are capable of doing courageous, selfless acts. It’s just built in. It can resurface in our consciousness if we become more noticing.

Love:

And as we do those courageous acts, we are also capable of seeing the world from other people’s perspectives. We are capable of empathy and acts of kindness in the face of challenging circumstances. You, my readers, do it every day! We can do inconvenient acts for the sake of someone we care for. We come to the side of those who mourn. We help out without anyone knowing. We care for our kids even if it means sacrificing our own convenience.

That in a nutshell can sum up what we do in counseling. Making us the whole human beings that we were meant to be based on how we were wired. It’s not easy being human because we have a very handy tool that can also cause us much suffering. The mind is there to do its job. Objectively noticing that it is neither a boss nor an enemy makes a big difference. We just need to learn to notice it doing its thing, face our fears and do things that matter anyway, and then do it with love and care for ourselves and others as well. In other words, we are all capable of awareness, courage, and love, but sometimes we are not aware, or aware that we are not aware sometimes. And this my friends, takes practice!

Have a more noticing new year to come and thank you for coming to this place for the past 2021.

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Don’t judge yourself…but how?

by Nathan Chua

Don’t judge yourself!

Well, how’s that done? Unfortunately, once we decide to not judge ourselves for judging ourselves, then what are we doing? We are judging ourselves for judging ourselves. It is not just that we judge, but we judge the judging. So we are judging “judging!”

Let’s do this well-loved exercise to discover how our minds work. If I tell you that you are a pretty okay person, notice what your mind does to that thought. If I tell you that you are the nicest, most wonderful person on the planet that ever lived, notice what your mind does with that thought. Finally, if I tell you, you are the worst and least kind person on the planet, notice what your mind does with that. If you notice, your mind will come up with different thoughts with every comment. It’s like it is arguing with itself and it will not stop!

In its earlier days, ACT was called comprehensive distancing. This means that in ACT, we are not so much interested in the content of our thoughts as the function of our thoughts. In order to do that, we need to separate ourselves from our thoughts. The first step is to notice our thoughts as just thoughts. They don’t have to be gotten rid of or believed or followed.

The key to more psychological freedom is to notice how the mind works. By freedom I don’t mean that we will eventually be free of our thoughts, but rather that we will become more capable of saying no to the dictates of our thoughts. Some of those dictates lead to compliance, while some lead to resistance and judging! In other words, noticing how our minds work helps us to become more capable of making effective choices for a better life.

Now let’s get back to the judging. The mind is an excellent judging machine. It has to because otherwise we would not be as successful a species as we would like. Why is this so? Judging has its uses. In order to survive longer, our minds have to judge the surroundings and look out for threats. Therefore, to know which ones are a threat and which ones are not, our minds would have to judge!

As Dr. Russ Harris illustrates, back when we were cave dwellers, we needed our minds to judge the presence of a threat to our survival. Our minds are there as survival tools that get us through inclement weather, save us from predatory animals, or whatever threats there may be. Unfortunately, that same function of the mind is not limited to external threats only. The human mind translates all signals of threat as one. Regardless of whether it is a physical external threat or an internal one, the signals evoke the same urges to respond in a certain way. The fear of an approaching bear is construed as the same fear when we have thoughts of a bear.

The subject of the work of an ACT therapist is to help the client notice that these mental processes are just that, mental. The noticing is followed by an open stance or a willingness to have such difficult experiences in the service of doing what is important to the client.

So there you are! If there was anything that you and I know about ACT as an approach to therapy, this skill of noticing thoughts as thoughts and judgments as judgments is key! Now how about judging the “judging?” Notice the judging and remember that this is just another function of the mind. There is nothing inherently wrong with judging “judging,” for that is what the mind does. What we can practice is to notice the judging as what it is, not what it says it is.

Our minds are like an overzealous friend who wants to be helpful. It is not our enemy. Think of it as your child just wanting you to be a comfortable and safe parent. Therein lies one of the keys to being mindful and living the mindful life. These parts of you are not your enemies but your friends or your children. Love them for what they are, not as what they say they are, and we’ll soon be on our way to a more loving and more compassionate existence.

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Why some remain skeptical about counseling

by Nathan Chua

With the way many mainstream and social media entities have dealt with the topic of mental health, it may be surprising for some to know that therapy and counseling has yet to completely shake off the social stigma attached to seeking help for mental health problems. Although the pandemic could have reduced some of the skepticism, there are still many who are adamant about their views. I know some of you reading this will think, “Uh oh, here we go again, another article in defense of seeking professional help.” Quite the contrary though, and sorry to disappoint you, but this post is more about taking a long hard look at what the profession has done to produce such skepticism. Maybe it’s time to look inside our practices and see what our role is in contributing to this lack of confidence.

In his book, “The Anatomy of an Epidemic,” author and journalist, Robert Whitaker talks about how drugs have been abused to treat otherwise well-functioning individuals who suffered serious albeit temporary mental problems. As I have written before in a previous blog post, this is what Dr. Steven Hayes often refers to as the “DSMization” or biomedicalization of mental health care. Dr. Hayes even encourages dropping the term, “mental health,” for something that is more attuned to what the current science is showing. He suggests the use of mental resilience or mental skills instead. In sum, the current approach of classifying people into categories and subcategories of disease has done more harm than good. It has led to the abuse of medications that more often produce unnecessary and rather serious side effects. I have written about this in a past blog post, so let’s turn now to the crux of what I want to share in this one.

The second point which I want to emphasize for this post is what I heard Dr. Hayes said about our work in the helping profession that uses talking (or language) as a primary medium of change. At the time I heard it, I couldn’t understand what he meant when he said that in our field of work, experience predicts confidence not competence. I even took the time to post my difficulty understanding Dr. Hayes’ words in one of the social media groups I have belonged to since attending some workshops in the past. I didn’t really find any of the comments to my posted question to hit the nail on the head. Finally and luckily, I came across a podcast where Dr. Hayes himself explained what he meant.

It’s pretty much like learning how to shoot the ball in the game of basketball. Looking at how your shot went gives you the feedback you need to see how you can improve your shooting skills, or which shooting form works. Yes, feedback! Now can you imagine if you were shooting with a blindfold all along!

In my first nine years of practice, I had followed what was mostly being taught in mainstream psychology here in the Philippines. Of course, my clients eventually get better! But better at what? Well, mainly they had become better at reducing some of that anxiety, depression, etc. The rule of thumb can be summed up this way, you are here for counseling because you need help in removing some of that difficult feeling inside in order for you to do whatever it is you want moving forward.

At times then I was wondering, do my clients really get better because of my work, or are they just recovering on their own over time? The other side of it is, why are my clients coming back for sessions every time there is a new challenge in front of them? Furthermore, with the approaches I had tried, I had to read up on so many books and enroll in so many training modules in order to address the myriad of cases presented to me! I thought this feels quite like an impossible task! Is there anyone who can master all of these protocols for every mental health concern? Is that even human?

And of course I was getting good feedback, because clients do learn that these difficult emotions do have a shelf life! And I had become their shoulder to cry on when things get rough once again! So who’s the expert here?

Even while I was in business, I was always looking for better stuff. I remember in my 40s, I found myself hitting a ceiling with finding answers through my spiritual journey. And as I pursued further studies in counseling, I hit another ceiling! It felt like whatever I was doing, I could not attest to myself that these same methods I use with my clients do lead me to get past my own limitations!

Now I am not saying here that I have reached some kind of perfection in terms of the way I deal with my personal struggles. In fact, I am still learning up until this writing. But in Contextual Behavioral Science (in general and Acceptance and Commitment Therapy in particular), I think I have found a place where there is a way past that final ceiling. And guess what? If there was something available out there that proves to me that I can find a science that can even be better than what is available in contextual behavioral science, I will take it! Because what matters to me in my work is what actually works! That is why I am now an ACT therapist and a functional contextualist! I think it is by far the most scientifically sound approach and the one that will gradually take me through that hardest of all ceilings! This is the fire that burns in me and the reason why I am passionate about sharing this with you!

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After Infidelity

by Nathan Chua

What now? Couples who have experienced a betrayal are often at a loss about what to do with the current state of affairs. Yes, there will be the initial shock and anger and bickering. At times, there might even be physical altercations. No doubt a betrayal is the most common reason for couples to come to therapy and is also one of the most difficult problems to come out of.

Many have been surprised to find out that the effects of infidelity can linger on for many years in spite of signs that the betrayed partner has already moved on. In some cases, it can also happen that the betrayed partner is unable to acknowledge the painful memories that still cast a shadow on the relationship. This may be for fear of revisiting old wounds and being labeled as unforgiving or being stuck in the past by the offending partner. There are multiple aspects that need to be addressed in the aftermath of an affair. I hope you find some hope in the tips I offer here on your road to recovery.

For the offended party:

Tip 1: You will very likely have flashbacks. Flashbacks are different from memories as they signal to the person that the abuse is still occurring in the present. Suspicions show up regularly. On the other hand, a memory is simply a recollection of events from the past which does not necessarily have to be acted on or suppressed. Betrayed partners, if the flashbacks last long enough, will begin to wonder if there is something wrong with them for being unable to move on from the hurt. In fact, there are quite a number who have actually seen a doctor to get medication for their symptoms. The drawback here is that even as these flashbacks are to be expected, many end up only getting temporary relief from the medication. They now not only have to worry about the flashbacks, they also get concerned about the fact that they are still having them in spite of the medication. Frequent fights that seem to come out of nowhere can result from the self-stigma that happens due to frequent failed attempts at suppressing painful memories.

Tip 2: Your partner, if they are sincere, will feel guilty about the transgression. The more you attack them the more they would want to withdraw from the conversation. Unfortunately, the more the offending party withdraws, the more the betrayed partner feels insecure and suspicious of the silence or the dismissive remarks. This is the loop that couples end up experiencing because of their inability to cope in more effective ways.

Tip 3: Get in touch with your softer emotions that are normally hidden underneath all that anger and hatred. Think about what you want to stand for at this moment. Ask yourself, “What would you like your kids to see in how you confront difficult situations such as these? If you were being the person you want to be in these challenging times, what would you say to your spouse?”

For the Offending Party:

Tip 1: Realize that your partner has gone through a form of trauma as some experts would say. Your partner is not doing this on purpose. It is impossible to predict how long the effects will last on your partner. Your partner will never be able to forget what happened but you can both start building new memories of warmth and compassion. Your withdrawal will reflect coldness and a lack of sensitivity to someone that has been hurt very deeply.

Tip 2: Validate your partner’s feelings and avoid dismissive comments. Validation does not mean you agree with what your partner is saying. It is just a means to let your partner know that you understand what they are going through and will be there in times when the emotions become overwhelming for them.

Tip 3: The best way to react to such an unfortunate turn in your relationship is to be validating and reassuring. Many offending partners have problems tolerating the mood shifts that come with a betrayal. However the more impatient you get, the more your partner will suspect that you have yet to come clean.

Is it time to leave?

My training in couples therapy has taught me that there needs to be certain conditions for a couple to remain together. Of course, the default is always toward saving the relationship. Infidelity is solely the responsibility of the offending partner but the relationship itself is the responsibility of both. The betrayed partner is never to be blamed. At this point, the only recourse available is to find ways to recover in more effective ways.

Many couples experience a regeneration in their relationship after a betrayal. For one, with some help, couples can learn to treasure their relationship even more and not take things for granted. Secondly, couples can also learn how to get out of their respective comfort zones in order to speak more openly with each other. The things that they can learn in therapy can also serve them in the process of creating what some experts would refer to as marriage (or relationship) number two.

In my years of working with couples who have suffered from the effects of an affair, I have learned that recovery can be summed up in an old prayer written by Reinhold Niebuhr, which I will paraphrase here: When suffering and working through infidelity, it is important that we understand what is meant by having the serenity to accept the things we cannot change; having the courage to change the things we can change; and finally having the wisdom to know the difference.

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When we grieve…

by Nathan Chua

Nothing can be more heartrending than to see someone in my office having to deal with the loss of a dear one. Not only is there pain in seeing the empty spaces at home, but also the empty hours that go by without a familiar companion. Some even have to deal with the images of seeing the loved one’s struggle for that one last breath.

How does one cope with such a cruel reality that life introduces us to, the moment we lose that childhood innocence? What does grieving involve? How do we move on when all we have are memories of something that will never happen again? Why is it so hard to find relief?

Some of the unnecessary suffering we experience in the course of grieving involves our own struggle against the feelings that come with a loss. When we suppress our feelings that come with such an evocative event, we end up with an unwinnable struggle. A common misconception is that grief is a feeling that we should try to get over with. We feel especially unfit when we are not able to do so just at the time when others around us have. Attached to this idea is the effort to appear unperturbed by the pain we carry. Grief is not a feeling but a process that involves different feelings. There will be guilt, hurt, sadness, anger, and many more that come along with the process.

A common experience is the advice that we get from well-meaning people around us who try hard to cheer us up. Our minds will quickly relate this to some kind of internal defect having been left behind by the group that has moved on with their feelings. We reject parts of us that tell us that we have lost someone we cared for. You and I are not robots or computers that can be programmed to shut down certain thoughts and feelings with the flick of a switch. This is what I often end up observing in my clients. It is quite understandable since there is so much pressure to conform with the expectations; especially of those they hold in high regard.

If we run away from our difficult feelings then we don’t really learn much about who we are or what we hold to be important in our relationships. Grieving now turns into a struggle with our own thoughts, feelings, and memories. We overlook the reason behind our pain. That reason is important because we cared enough to hurt over what we have lost. Dr. Steven Hayes had this to say, “The things that bring us pain, also enrich our lives. When we cry at the loss of a friend, we’re enriching our lives, we’re not diminishing our lives.”

One of the processes that can help us get through with more resilience, purpose, and meaning in the midst of such a crushing event is to remember why this person meant so much to us. Maybe they were kind and loving. Maybe they never had a bad thing to say about others. Maybe they were thoughtful and caring, gentle and soft-spoken. Whatever it is that they left in your memory only tells you one thing. That those same qualities of being they lived, are pretty much the same in you. Live it! Bring their lives into yours and experience for yourself what some experts call a place in time, “where the magic happens.”

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Living with Purpose and Intent

by Nathan Chua

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever,”

Mahatma Gandhi

Have you come to a point in your life when you feel like as it says in the Bible, chasing after the wind? Have you ever felt like every day has become a pointless pursuit of comfort and tranquility? Has your life turned into an endless problem to solve? You go from fixing one problem after another. When’s the next challenge going to come? Will I be able to surmount the bigger ones down the line?

If you have, don’t worry, you’re not alone. I came from the same quagmire. Early in my career, I started believing that life was about fulfilling a role of being around to be the problem solver. Furthermore, I had learned from my history that the secret to the good life is the comfortable life. One in which I can be the great problem solver, conquering one obstacle at a time until there remain only the easier ones. I dreamt of eventually coasting along as I moved into old age.

I lived that way for the first 20 years of my working life. People around me would notice how I looked then. I often carried a tired and angry expression on my face; always on alert for the next challenge that comes my way. I was the hero who was always ready to come to the rescue.

To borrow a metaphor I saw in a YouTube video, you can view a rabbit running across from a window, but you wouldn’t know if that rabbit was going for a carrot or running away from a predator. I was like that rabbit that people saw from a window. One couldn’t tell if I was in business because I simply enjoyed doing it or if I was doing it to avoid the shame that comes if I had failed in business. For those who are new here, I spent the first 20 years of my career as a businessman. A failure in business meant I had failed my family.

You would probably understand why I often looked tired and angry. Tired because life has become a struggle and angry because I didn’t see any end in sight. Life was sending me challenge after challenge to surmount. Like the rabbit running away from a predator that eventually tires out, I was exhausted escaping from the jaws of my shaming, “Whatever happens, don’t be a failure,” thoughts.

One day I woke up and started noticing the hamster wheel I was on. It was as if I was living backwards. Like some of what I learned in psychodynamic therapy, I lived hoping to come back to the safety of my mother’s womb, wishing to get back to that fetal position of a tranquil life.

That tranquil life turns out to be a mirage. No matter how much we try to avoid it, life has its challenges and running away from the feelings and thoughts that these challenges come with, is like becoming a rabbit that spends most of its time fleeing a predator, although in my case the predator is my own worst fears.

You and I can pivot towards a life in pursuit of what truly matters to us. Rabbits run away from life-threatening circumstances. We humans though can run away from our thoughts and not just actual threats to our safety. It only takes the rabbit to notice when the noise behind the bushes was just a gust of wind to make it go and pursue food or a mate. Although it is difficult, we can start to make changes in our life directions by noticing if we are spending much of our energies running away from our unpleasant internal experiences, or if we are pursuing the qualities of being and living that matter to us.

The happy rabbit is the one that pursues nourishment and the possibility of a mate. Take it from there, are you willing to start pursuing the rich and meaningful life, even if it means that your fearful inner experiences will become more evident as you go. Maybe that’s what Gandhi meant in his words. His life was mostly about pursuing something that was good and noble, rather than about running away from the dangers his mind reminded him of. He pursued the irrational move to expose himself to the dangers of a life spent for the welfare of others, and paid the ultimate price. Nonetheless, he lived, not the tranquil life, but the meaningful one. He is the quintessential rabbit moving in the direction of what he wanted to do with his time…every single minute.

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Are you a walking diagnosis?

by Nathan Chua

In my more than a decade’s work, one of the most common questions I get from people inquiring about mental health services is, “Can you give me a diagnosis?” These come in many forms. Some call already with a prior diagnosis from another practitioner, “I had been diagnosed as a borderline personality, is there anything different about the way you treat people like me?” Even as I had training from that very same school of thought, I had always had my reservations about the practice of diagnosing. I had been diagnosed once, and I know how it feels and I know that it really wasn’t helpful. It is as if knowing what people have can make them somehow more aware of their tendencies and therefore allow them to be more cognizant of their actions.

Does knowing one’s diagnosis really help? Let’s take a look at what a diagnosis really comes up to, by taking this to an absurd level of analogy. If one were diagnosed to be bipolar, would they go around eating in restaurants and meeting people and saying, “Hi, I am Nathan. I am a bipolar disordered person!” Would they introduce themselves in every situation the same way? Like would that be how you would tell someone about yourself in a group class? From this, we can notice that we all act differently depending on the situations that we are in. We act differently when we are at work and when we are at home. We act differently when we are stressed and when we are relaxed.

Based on my experience, I have seen how this happens to people who had been dealt with a veritable life sentence of being attached to a label. At times, even worse, pinned with an inaccurate one at that.

As human beings we have evolved into a group of cells and individuals that thrive and survive through cooperation. One of the scariest parts of being human is to become isolated from a group. Being creatures who survive in communities, we have yearnings to belong. In the wild, the isolated human’s fate is most probably becoming a dead human sooner than later.

Belonging is important to us. There was even a famous study in the past that showed how much humans require nurturing and caring. Babies cannot survive just being fed through a bottle. They need touching and the physical and mental stimulation that comes from a caregiver.

However in the age of social media and the rest of the modern accoutrements we enjoy, the mind has hijacked this inner yearning to belong. Our problem-solving minds are excellent in categorizing people. The way to this felt sense of belonging has turned into being special instead of being one with others who share the same doubts, fears, and inner perturbations. You and I can see this in how special people want to project themselves in their social media accounts. The way to belong is to become special! Do you notice the oxymoron here?

The other way the mind hijacks this yearning to belong is the complete opposite of the abovementioned example. Our thoughts turn us into especially vulnerable individuals that need special attention. I have bipolar disorder so you better be extra kind and loving around me.

Like traits, all these diagnoses serve more to put us in boxes of categories. Experts have seen how countries that had adapted this system of classification (or what we call our DSM, Diagnostic and Statistical Manual for Mental Disorder) get worse results. What we used to think were just the shy nerdy types in school have now turned into walking diagnoses that need special attention and worse, medication. We had forgotten an era when that shy, quiet girl in class can turn into the next world class stage performer.

So let’s get back to how I started this blog post. What do I say when asked about whether or not I can give a diagnosis? I just tell them that I don’t.

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Getting Hooked by Angry Thoughts!

by Nathan Chua

If you are old enough to watch the daily news or get regular updates online through social media platforms, you would be familiar with the all too common sights of road rage or someone who had just lost his or her temper and did something that was captured on a phone camera. We have seen how people do things that they would never have even dreamt about in reaction to their angry thoughts and feelings. How many times have we seen previously law-abiding citizens commit heinous acts and then later on regret what they had done when it was too late. In Acceptance and Commitment Therapy (ACT), the term used to describe this process of fusing with thoughts is “getting hooked.” Fusing with thoughts means our thoughts dictate what we do.

Yes, I should have seen it coming! It was in late September this year that I realized I had to re-register to vote. For those who are not from the Philippines, the background is about being automatically delisted as a voter if one has missed voting in two consecutive elections. I had thought all along that I had just missed one midterm election, but only to realize accidentally when I came upon a Facebook post that assessed my eligibility as a voter in late September, that I had missed voting in a small town (barangay) election that was held one year before the midterm elections. Of course, that induced some panic in me when I recalled online videos showing the horribly long queues of people lining up in the midst of a pandemic to register before the deadline set by the end of September! As I attempted to find ways to register where there were shorter lines and found out how tough it was to navigate the government website to print out the necessary forms, I realized that this will take a herculean effort. Sacrificing a day of productive work just to register as a voter was not exactly what I had envisioned for what is supposedly a democratic country where the right to vote is protected, facilitated, or made as easy as possible.

To cut the story short, I finally ended up having to deal with getting requirements to register all over again. And true enough, I felt the process was disproportionately tedious for the simple act of voting. Upon completing my documents I set out to register only to be told rather nonchalantly that my documents were unacceptable! You can just imagine how frustrating that could be after you had braved the long lines and a pandemic just to register.

I eventually got into a heated argument with the two people in charge of checking my documents. It took me about five minutes to realize that I had gotten hooked by my angry thoughts! Upon noticing what I had been doing, I quickly apologized for my behavior. It was not the person I wanted to be in that moment, and not the way I wanted to handle the situation. As you can see you are not alone in struggling with your anger. Even counselors like me can get hooked!

Here are other examples of getting hooked by our thoughts:

Have you ever had an experience when you were having a dinner conversation with someone important only to realize that you missed half the conversation?
Have you ever played with your child and all of a sudden noticed that your toddler is just about to fall off the crib?
Or drove all the way to work and didn’t know how you got there or which route you took?
Have you ever come home after someone tried to steal your bag during your walk? Once you arrive to your family, you would probably be talking about this experience with them for hours and even days. The experience can get you off your normal routines at home.

All of these involve something grabbing your attention and our minds start giving us reasons for not playing with our kids or hugging our partner. In other words, your world stops in those moments. You become less of the kind, loving, and caring person you used to be.

In my case, with all the bureaucratic requirements I had to go through, I was hooked by the thought that the government is bad. Hence, I felt physically tense the minute I went into the registration site. I failed to notice this and went about the business of registering not ready for any possible frustration that might come my way.

In hindsight, I was already hooked even before the challenging situation happened! It’s hard to recognize a hook until we notice that biting the hook has brought us in a different direction! This process of unhooking from our thoughts is based on what Dr. Steven Hayes explains as looking at our thoughts rather than looking from our thoughts. The original name for ACT was comprehensive distancing, which means distancing from the thoughts that our minds give us, so our thoughts don’t dictate what we do.

The first step in being able to distance ourselves from our thoughts is to be more noticing.

On that afternoon at the voter registration facility, I got hooked! I noticed only about five minutes into my ranting and quickly made amends to my ways. Some damage had already been done though and my thoughts began to run wild with shaming accusations that I am just not a good enough person, much less a counselor.

Well, here’s what ACT has to say about that too. We will get hooked no matter how hard we try to be more noticing, for we are only human. What doesn’t change though is that little voice in our heads that reminds us of what we want to be about in each and every moment. Realize that and ask ourselves after getting hooked, “Has anything that was important to us changed?” Perhaps not. Every time we fall into not noticing, we can always get up again and do our best in moving towards the person we want to be and the life we want to live.

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The Surefire Way to Save Your Relationship!

by Nathan Chua

More often than not, couples come to counseling explaining their respective sides of the mess that has become of their relationship. Each of them has turned into a lawyer for their respective cases to prosecute and defend. For the trained eye though, they are engaging in a pattern of attack and defend. They’ve come to therapy to find an advocate or the ultimate authority in the person of the counselor. It is the therapist or counselor who will make the final determination of who is right and who is wrong. In some cases, they see the therapist as the final arbiter who can determine the fate of their relationship.

For those who are hoping to find some ways of resolving their differences, they face the dilemma of still loving and caring for their partner, but at the same time, can’t wrap their heads around why they end up fighting like mortal enemies over some trivial matters. It’s like their partner turns into something else other than the person they fell in love with. This while each shows glimpses of that lovable side in more sober moments.

Couples find themselves dealing with two dilemmas. These twin dilemmas are what I described in the first paragraph of this blogpost. The dilemma about who’s right and who’s wrong (i.e. who should back down and submit to the authority of the counselor), and the dilemma of whether the relationship is worth saving or not.

Fortunately, there is a surefire way to save your relationship. I believe that no matter what you end up doing as a couple, a successful handling of your dilemma means that you retain a relationship with your partner regardless of whether it remains together or not. With this silver bullet to all relationships, a couple may end up having a better way of handling their conflicts, or discover that they might be better off as separate individuals who can still learn to be friends after.

The best way to find out what the ultimate fate of the relationship will be, is to change the only thing that each partner has the most control over: Themselves! In other words, if you change yourself for the better, you are more likely to enjoy a couple of possible results. You either end up having a better relationship because your partner notices your positive changes, or you realize that no matter how much you change, your partner doesn’t.

Let’s take the first possible result. If your partner senses the positive changes you have made, there is a greater likelihood that they will change too. For example, when, after years of trying, you decide not to badger your partner about how messy the room is. Your partner may notice that sudden but welcome change. Having felt relieved of the constant reminders, your partner may in turn show you their appreciation by, well, cleaning up the room!

Changing yourself can also solve the dilemma of whether you should stay in the relationship or otherwise. If you have done your part to make changes in yourself and see a lack of response in your partner, then maybe it’s time to come to the realization that you no longer share the same ideas about who or what is important to both of your lives at this moment. By getting yourself out of the attack and defend pattern, you will know that your partner’s unresponsiveness is not rooted in the way you handle conflict, but a difference in your life directions.

To end this post, just remember that when all things seem hopeless, you still have yourself to count on for change.

“Be the change you want to see in the world,” Mahatma Gandhi.

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